This week I want to share a part of myself I've been holding back.
I wasn't keeping it from you for some shady reason--rather, it's because my relationship with it had been complicated.
I get asked a lot about HOW I cultivated a mindset of fearless certainty that my baby (see Asher above) would come in spite of ridiculous odds.
I call my odds ridiculous, because my scorecard would have made most people shudder:
- 84 "failures" including IUIs, IVFs, FETs,
- Platinum status at my celebrity acupuncturist's clinic--yet no baby,
- A diet that would have passed the white glove test of even the most hardcore of nutritionists--yet no baby,
- A coveted spot on the patient list of one of the top 10 teaching hospitals in the United States--yet no baby,
- A regimen of medicinal baths custom designed by a renowned medical intuitive--yet no baby,
- A kitchen counter scattered with the finest supplements money could buy--yet no baby...I could go on, but I'm sure you get the picture.
I was able to cultivate bulletproof certainty my baby was coming in the face of all of that craziness and the fact I was OVER 40, in part, because I repaired a relationship.
My relationship with faith.
Settle down. I'm not here to proselytize a specific belief system.
But, I am going to love you enough to keep it real: you've gotta have faith.
If your faith is weak or you have none at all, I get it.
I struggled with the notion of faith bitterly on my journey, at times feeling stupid and embarrassed for having it, because it seemed like airy-fairy nonsense and didn't seem to be "working."
I turned my back on faith and decided to put all of my belief in science and medicine.
The irony was, by putting my faith in science and medicine, it brought me full circle back to my faith in something far greater.
Why? Because science and medicine can indeed bring a sperm and egg together, but even under the most favorable circumstances, they can't guarantee the miracle of life.
That's in the hands of something bigger than all of us.
For that reason, I invite you to revisit your relationship with faith.
I'm sharing this, because it's part of HOW I was able to transform my mindset, be so certain, and defy the odds...I dearly want the same for you.
Faith kept me nodding and smiling when people would toss withering statistics in my direction, ended the abusive relationship I had with fear and doubt, and supported the No Matter What Badassery that put Asher Douglas in my arms at 43.
Whether your faith is in God, The Creator, The Universe, Allah, Spirit, Yahweh, Infinite Intelligence, Goddess, Source Energy, Quantum Physics, or whatever you choose to call it, there is a miracle destined for YOU, yes YOU.
My ladies have faith.
They understand that science, medicine, and miracles are not mutually exclusive, but are instead the tools of something far greater, which may have a frustrating timeline, but never, ever fails to deliver.
Decide you will be one of them.
Change your mindset, change your results.
Intrigued? Here's an exercise to take this to the next level...
Reconnect with your faith.
What do you believe in?
Is it time you dusted your faith off a bit and tapped into it?
Take some time this week to explore the state of your faith. With time and experience, we may part with some of the notions we were raised with and begin to cultivate our own. That's a beautiful thing. Faith is an intensely personal expression. If you desire to call in your miracle baby, you've got to have it!
I see everyday women calling in miracles, well, everyday! Why not you love?
Stretch yourself! It's about progress, not perfection!